The feeling of nothing is sufficient

In the last 8 months, job hunt has been stressful yes, but it’s the feeling of “no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it’s just not enough” that’s stuck with me and it’s soul crushing.

There's always a deadline, I am always last minute to it, because I have been doing so much else, yet at the end of the day, It seems like I am not doing enough to fulfill my goals.


P.S. Attended the second tiat place event at the Internet Archive today, and it was refreshing to go out and meet more creative technologists. But more on it later. This is foreshadowing tomorrow's post.

Movie Recommendation: Elevator Pitch by Alexx Zaki

Alexx Zaki's debut short film Elevator Pitch is a timely take on the process of job-hunting. The process is robotic, de-humanising and soul crushing. Alexx does a great job representing it in few words. The actors are terrific, they show a range of depth in such few words. Watch out for the "hip-VP", that person conveys so much in a single dialogue.

Highly recommend spending four minutes of your time on this terrific short film.

P.S. I must disclose, Alexx is one of my best friends, so I am inclined to enjoy everything they make; but even so, this is an unbiased, honest take. I have already seen this short twice.

Sunsets

Just some beautiful sunsets with the Golden Gate Bridge in the distance.

Music I'm listening to in 2025

With good Hindi and Tamil music in short supply these days. I have shifted to listening to more Punjabi music in the last couple of years. Really enjoying the works of Sharry mann, Amrit Mann, Prabh Singh, and Zehr Vibe apart from the usual suspects.

Here's my playlist:

The Illusion of a good Pizza

Went to Doppio Zero, one of SF's only few AVPN certified Pizzerias, basically one of the few Pizzerias in SF that can claim that their Pizzas match the Italian standardization body's strict requirements for what's a True Neapolitan Pizza. I have my doubts on that.


This Pizza looks great. It looks like a true Neapolitan Pizza. The Cheese and the preparations are on point, the pizza tastes great too, the sauce is balanced (just crushed tomatoes) and flavours on point. But it's a heavy pizza, in fact too heavy for what a 12" Neapolitan Pizza should be. The after-taste is not great at all. It's not easily digestable, the crust is too doughy and not fun to eat.


Look at the gluten net, it's too dense! This isn't a great pizza at all!

How do I know this? I made a very similar mistake about a week back. The Pizza looks great. But does the Pizza have the right impact on our stomachs, maybe not.

To be fair, this is nitpicking and I am a bit of a Pizza purist here. This is a practice popular across SF, and Doppio Zero is one of the better ones. But I believe a good traditional neapolitan pizza is the one that's easy to digest, not the one that looks the part.

Go small and build communities

Philz is about to be sold to a private equity firm and this is not a one-off occurance. All popular local-coffee roasters from SF in the last two decades that raised a bunch of money, have met a similar fate. They were great, they became popular, they grew, they raised money and then couldn't grow enough so are now being sold to bigger more evil companies.

This is what I call the indie to medium sized sell-out arc. It doesn't just happen in the world of coffee, it happens everywhere there are indies. Indie software comes to mind, which has the same arc. Food is the other obvious one.


To me the problem exists with the notion of infinite growth. This very American idea of "Go Big or Go Home". What if that's not the right approach. Not everything needs to keep growing to the point where it either controls everything or sells out to someone else who does. I also hate this phrase because it's often used as a way to tell me how my own work as an indie is insignificant and will never be as big as the likes of big players. So what do we do to fight the demon of "Go Big or Go Home"?

We "Go Small and Build Communities". What does that mean. Here's my proposition:

Minimalism is anything but simple

Was at a bookstore today, and saw the book covers of some "Penguin Archive" books. They're supposed to be minimalist text based covers with just two colours (white and red) and a single font. Yet, these covers convey so much information.

Minimalism is anything but simple. These are minimalist covers for sure. Are they simple? Definitely not. Which makes me wonder about What exactly is minimalism. Is it the "absence of clutter? or the presence of only what's essential" (I'm Referencing Jony Ive's views on simplicity here). I think it's the latter.

All Dreams must end

Final evening in Berkeley today and incredibly sad to leave the city.
Berkeley was a literal dream come true. Ever since I visited the city for the first time in 2017, I have wanted to study in Berkeley. The university campus was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. So much greenery, the walkabilty of the city, the perfect weather. Everything about Berkeley was blissful. Alas, Berkeley didn't have a Masters program for Design. So for the longest time it seemed like that it would just be a dream.

Cut to 2019 November, I had just started giving a thought to pursuing my Masters. I looked at Berkeley again, no program. Sadly. I kept looking for a Masters of Design program in Berkeley every 3-4 months ever since. That's how badly I wanted to study in Berkeley; and one day it showed up. Berkeley had started a Master's of Design program, for designing emerging technologies with a focus on social good / social justice. It was the perfect fit. Exactly what I wanted to pursue. Exactly what I where I wanted to study.

So I joined the program in the Fall of 2023, and the next two years have been a literral dream come true. I had the best academic experience of my life. Wrote a thesis that was personally fulfilling. But more importantly met the kindest and most awesome people, whom I have the privilege of calling my friends.

For the first time in my life, I wasn't explaining myself. My friends understood where I was coming from, and not only that, some of them were in on those crazy ideas tooo. I blurted to a friend once "I know I am a bit crazy for thinking like this.." somehow, for some reason, they didn't think it was crazy at all. I realised I had finally met people who saw the world like I do, who were also marching towards what I aspired the world to be.

I couldn't have asked for a better group of people to spend my time in Berkeley with. But as is with all dreams in life, they must end. And so 8 months after graduation, my lease in Berkeley has finally ended, and I like my friends must disperse to other parts of the world. Will I miss Berkeley? Yes! Was it one of the best times of my life, that I will cherish forever? Yes!!